My last few encounters have been with gays who I found on gay dating websites. But lemme confess. All these sex-counters have left me more dissatisfied than satisfied. And it has forced me to think if I really want to do with these experienced and easy-to-lead-to-bed guys.

After each such encounter, I ask myself if I want to meet someone again, and I don't hear my heart thumping eagerly. Each time the heart has different reasons, but the fact is that I don't want to meet the guy again.

So what is it? Do I like to do with straights? Yes, I like doing it with straight guys; and I have reasons.

The whole process of getting attracted to flirting to finally sleeping with a straight guy is filled with excitement. For several days (sometimes weeks), you wait for just the right opportunity to hit the topic. There's a war between your mind and heart. Should you? Shouldn't you? And when you finally get to bed him, it's like a great accomplishment. The entire affair gets etched in your memory. More than the guy, it is fantasising about the guy that brings you to climax.

With a gay, the process is not so arousing. It begins with spotting a good profile or pic on a gay dating website. Otherwise, it's a referral by someone you know. You just need to share your pics and if possible chat online or on phone. And that sets the process. You meet one fine day and do everything to satisfy the body lust. As you come home tired, you are not very sure if you want to meet the guy again. You don't take his phone and soon the guy becomes a forgetful past. It often works with me this way. May differ in case of some of my readers.

Then there's the issue of experience. Now here's where many of my readers will differ with me. While they will emphasise on sleeping with experienced guys (because they do better sex), I choose the novice. May be that's because I too am a novice - at least in the choice of techniques. Moreover, there's a raw appeal to the straight guy. He too is just discovering this aspect of sex. So we can plan the sex-counter in the way we want.

Gays, who are well experienced in gay sex, will amaze you with the techniques they use. One man insisted on licking my ass. Since it was new for me, I let him. But soon he wanted me to do the same for him. No, I said. I am not into such kinky things. Also I would abstain from things that are unhygeinic. Another man wanted me to rub his fluid onto my body. Eeeeksssss.

Readers will ask if it was not me who went to that unhygeinic public toilet. But that was because of desperation. Would never do that if given a choice. Now it has been over half an year that I have not gone to that place.

There are many more reasons to choose straight over gays. But the problem is that straights are too hard to find. Not that all men have become gays. It is just that it is too difficult to convince them to sleep with you. Ever since I have started living with family, there has been no opportunity for me to find a straight. But it is they who have taken away my heart. Until then gays are just timepass.