Did i tell u i was all alone for this entire week and i had decided to end my fast (I hope I have told you that i have not slept with men for an year now) in a grand way.

so including R, I have already slept with 2 men and i am already feeling the guilt pangs. Yes, if i go about my licentious behaviour for long, i start feeling the guilt pangs. so no sex for now.

so what do i do today. being a saturday, it was an off for me and i wanted to do something useful, not spend the entire day watching TV.

why don't i get tested for HIV?

Don't see me that way. i know i have slept with so many men but most of them were just sleeping and some body play. Only i few people have got the luxury to insert in me. And they too were quite novices, me being their first times.

But i have spent the whole day but no test.

why? that's a long story.

Got several numbers from Just Dial (22222222) but most of them were useless. some of them were outdated, others were not working in the field. Finally someone suggested that i go to some government hospital, which i didn't want. I wanted tio go to some specialised agency. the AIDS helpline number helped little - none was picking1197. 1097 too failed.

so the entire day was spent and none of my plans acheived. may be tomorrow i will go somewhere.